Hey! I'll do a short post since it's already 2200. I've lost track of my count for the #100daystooffload thingy but unless it's really close I guess I should consider this a half-post.
I didn't want to return to the states. I had a lot of reasons for this, as I've explained, but one of them was political: the US is a cesspool for fascism.
Now that I'm back, I might as well make the best of the situation. Looking on the bright side, hypothetically I'm in a great position to fight fascism, right?
Whether I have the guts to do that is yet to be seen. I hope I do.
Is it considered another blog in the #100daystooffload challenge if I do two blogs in one day?
Ugh. I am trying to manage my time properly and you don't know how much time you've been wasting on a daily basis until you start tracking it. 6 hours ago I had to write a 3 paragraph essay on a particular aspect of Shakespeare's Macbeth, and so far I'm two sentences in. Other than that essay, according to my browser history I've also:
Tried to figure out how to do VNC in a browser
Looked into Apple's ethics section, and how they are really totally an ethical company, as well as looking at some of their devices
Installed Ad Nauseam again
Looked for a time-tracking app, went through 3 alternatives
Played some guitar and some trumpet
Looked at 2 videos of what happens when you practice every day for a year
Thought about setting up a personal wiki using emacs org-mode
Looked at some old anarchist blog I used to follow when I was actually an anarchist
Looked at YunoHost
Tried to figure out how to do math in Bash
Looked at how to set up a gaming PC for x dollars
Looked at CowLicks
Looked at the benefits of writing regularly (these are in reverse order by the way, around this time I also wrote the first blog post today)
Made an Outlook account (what the fuck?)
Looked at the first domain name ever registered
Looked at the Uyghur “genocide” (still looking into that)
Looked at the world's tiniest programming language (sectorlisp)
Played Wordle
Scrolled through tons and tons of koyu.space throughout the day.
ADHD is a bitch. That's just today.
I really want to say that it will get better with time, but it has only gotten marginally better in the 13 years that I've been alive that it's been a problem (I'm 18, I'm not counting when I was <5 because I wasn't trying to do anything productive probably)
I have so much that I want to do, but there's also a ton that I have to do, and I can't get to the things that I want to do if I can't ignore the noise and keep pushing.